Thursday, April 15, 2010

Texting buddy, please?

I have a phone now. :D

I really want someone to talk to who understands. I'll help you as much as I can, and you can listen to me rant a little bit. In the summer I might need even more help, because I won't have people shoving food down my throat, but for now I want to just be able to stay connected and not lose hope or focus.

Message me at and I'll tell you my number, or we can just email back and forth.

Summer can't come fast enough.

I keep eating for them, they keep making me eat, I don't want this, I don't I don't I don't. I'm sick of it. I'm sickkkk of it, I don't want this any more. I never did. Stop making me eat, stop checking up on me. Stop, stop, stop!!!

I'm so depressed all the time. I can't be beautiful if they keep forcing me to be like everyone else. I'm still "thin" by their standards, and I know I'm not obesely fat or anything. I have no idea what I weigh. I don't wanna know. I want this all to stop. I want the summer to come NOW.

When summer gets here, I'll be gone too much for them to make me eat. I'm doing a decent job of acting like it doesnt bother me, so maybe they'll even trust me by then. R is going to be gone for a month in the summer. When he comes back, I swear I'll be beautiful for him.