Friday, January 8, 2010

Sorrrry for the late late late update.

Alllll righttt.
I haven't had a computer to update with, and I don't have long to use this one today...but to sum things up, I've kept to the first four days on my ABC. Tomorrow is a 500 day. I'm not scared, but we're going to Chilli's for supper, which means I'll probably fast until then so that I can eat with everyone not freaking out. I'm looking for the calorie counts online right now.

After tomorrow is my first fast. Easy, I hope. I believe in myself. I have to.

I put on my swimsuit for the first time in ever. I wore it around the house all day. My family looked at me strange, but I loved it because every mirror I passed smiled at me. I can't wait for summer. I hope I either have this body or a smaller one by summertime.

Anyway. Stay strong, ladies.

Monday, January 4, 2010

ABC. *Scared face*

I'm gonna be doing an ABC....details below.

I need support. I hate asking for help, but I know I need it. If you want to talk, email me at Please want to talk...haha. I'll be getting texting soon, and that'll make things wayy easier.

  1. 100 calories
  2. 200 calories
  3. 300 calories
  4. 400 calories
  5. 500 calories
  6. fast
  7. 150 calories
  8. 200 calories
  9. 400 calories
  10. 350 calories
  11. 250 calories
  12. 200 calories
  13. fast
  14. 200 calories
  15. 100 calories
  16. fast
  17. 300 calories
  18. 250 calories
  19. 200 calories
  20. 150 calories
  21. 100 calories
  22. 50 calories
  23. 100 calories
  24. 200 calories
  25. 200 calories
  26. 300 calories
  27. 800
  28. fast
  29. 250 calories
  30. 350 calories
  31. 450 calories
  32. fast
  33. 500 calories
  34. 450 calories
  35. 400 calories
  36. 350 calories
  37. 300 calories
  38. 250 calories
  39. 200 calories
  40. 200 calories
  41. 250 calories
  42. 200 calories
  43. 300 calories
  44. 200 calories
  45. 150 calories
  46. fast

Yeah, it's edited a bit. I wanna stay on track with "O.G." while she does it, too. I'll probably add the days I missed to the end...I hope I'm not cheating...?

Today was AWFUL. I ate a whole shitload. But we won't get into that...because I'm reading about the success of ABC and it sounds really promising. Tomorrow is a 100 day, so I guess I'll skip everything until dinner and have a yogurt. If that doesn't work...we'll figure something out.

I'm tired of giving up. I never finish anything. I want to see this through. I want to be thin, and be able to say it wasn't just luck, it was something I did, that I finally did something. I want to do something.

That's why I'm not...absolutely NOT...letting myself get away with any cheating. I let myself to do many things. Cheating on Ana will not be one of them.

Anyway, thanks.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Take your pie and shove it.

So, at the moment I'm at about 111 pounds. That's 4 pounds more than my lowest, which was only a few weeks ago. But it's also 4 pounds less than I was just last week.

I just asked a fellow blogger if I could join her in her ABC. I have no idea what I'm getting into, to be honest. I've never done one before. Sometimes I can hardly make it through a week with little food, so I don't know how good of an idea this is. But I'm sure that if it doesn't work out too well she'll understand. I'll hate myself forever, but it's not like I'll die. I'm just going to have to try to keep a positive outlook.

My mother made a whole bunch of baked goods. I hate when she cooks. She normally can't cook at all, but when she does she goes crazy. We have brownies out the butt. (Exaggeration..) Anyway though, I'll try to stay out of them.

I've had about 400 calories today. All right.

Well I'm off.