Friday, December 11, 2009

Finally, My Love.

Today has been a very relaxed day so far. I had an apple and a bit of lasagna for lunch. I don't really know why. Then I had a bit of frosting earlier. I'm not gonna eat any more today, unless I have to. I'm not upset with myself, though. I'm too upset with R to be upset with myself, too. He made today living hell for me without even realizing he was doing it.

Also, I have a doctor's appointment sometime in the future, I don't remember if it's today or not. I think it is...anyway, last time I went to the doctor I weighed 118, and now the scale is saying 107 (yes, under 110 omg happy!), so I don't want to alarm them too much. That doesn't mean that I'm going to eat myself up to 110 again, just that I don't wanna be much lower when the appointment comes.

So, tomorrow, there's this big party. I was originally planning on having a 140 cal. sandwich beforehand and nothing during, but I'm positive they'll have cookies and expectant eyes. That's gonna force me to skip all food before and after. I'll have one or two cookies and some punch, and try to dance it off. It won't be the same without R, though, for sure.


More latttterrr.


So, I've eaten a little more. Only about 60 cal.s though. Doesn't matter what it was. I'm still not upset with myself. All that's on my mind is R, and hoping he gets home soon so he can message me....if he even will. Haha, I bet I've lost a couple pounds of tears for him.

But oh! I got the scale to go down. 107 baby! You can even tell I'm lower than 110 on my Guess-Where-The-Pointer-Is-Pointing! scale. I'm soo happy! I'm just kind of scared of the doctor...but the whole reason I'm going in is because they think I have some kind of stomach issues. I can just say that I've felt like I'd puke anything I ate up, they'll believe that. I think that's not until Tuesday, though, and I don't want to put off losing weight for that long! I'll just keep going, but slower. Hopefully nothing bad happens.

I'm super excited about my new low weight!


  1. Stay excited. You deserve it. Remember getting there is not the tougher part; it's staying there.

    No one is forcing you to eat a damn cookie if you don't want to. It's your choice.

    Party on. Celebrate 107.

  2. wow... congratulations with your new low weight... unfortunately for me, I still am 110lbs... hope I get off this weight too...